The Road I Walk With You...

Maybe today I’m finished,
Maybe I just can’t make it one more day, I’m tired Lord.
Maybe I took a wrong path,
Or maybe it was your hand that brought me to this place
It’s a long road and a long way home from here
But your strong arm can help me persevere

So, one more day I’ll place one foot beyond the other
One more night I’ll lay me down to rest.
One more time, won’t you take my hand and lead me
Because the road I walk with you is always best
Yes, the road I walk with You is always best

Do you know the place we’re going?
Cause my lack of faith starts showing
When the path can not be seen
And I know that desert wanderings
Bring more than pious ponderings of your love for me.
And the long road from here to anywhere,
Is just a long time to rest within your care.

So, one more day I’ll place one foot beyond the other
One more night I’ll lay me down to rest.
One more time, won’t you take my hand and lead me
Because the road I walk with you is always best
Yes, the road I walk with You is always best

I received these words in an email from a fellow missionary that is serving in Central Asia. It's a song he wrote awhile back, and from the sound of it, he was experiencing what I am experiencing now. He gave me permission to use the words.

Sometimes I get tired of writing about my feelings of loneliness and discouragement. I think people are probably tried of hearing about it too. But it seems to be the season I am in and it's what flows out when I sit down to journal or write updates or blog postings. There are days of sunshine, though. In fact, I am beginning to experience more of those days lately.

One of the "added blessings" of my time away from school has been that I have more time to read. I have been encouraged in my walk with the Lord as I read the stories of fellow pilgrims in this world that is, after all, only our temporary home. People like John & Stasi Eldredge, John Ortberg, Henri Nouwen, Jan Meyers, Max Lucado and Brennan Manning are reminding me of who I am and where my significance comes from. I think I forgot for a little while, amidst the difficulties, how much God loves me and desires intimacy with me. I have been reminded that He is not far away, that "His desire to give Himself to you is greater than your desire to lay hold of Him."

I just came across something I wrote in my journal when I was in pre-field training in Colorado. "The transitional experience begins with the encounter of another culture and evolves into the encounter with self. Push through culture shock. Discover a whole new you and discover God." I'm not sure it's a "whole new me" as much as it is the "real me" that God desires to bring forth.

Thanks for listening in today. Your comments are always welcome. You are loved.